it's me

Sat, 01 Mar 2003 14:07:08 GMT

a lot of wine last night w/ good friends. manal made couscous and vegetables and meat.

we laid on the floor and talked. mostly about love.

pretending to be asleep on the sofa-bed, i watched denni get his photography gear together for a wedding shoot. he tried not to make too much noise. mouthed a "good-bye." it startled him.

they have a good life.

I've blown my chance.

Gibran's take on love...yeah

Going to celebrate lynn's birthday in orangeville.

It will be good to see my surrogate family. I need some family right now.

Tue, 04 Feb 2003 17:19:47 GMT

gosh

writing is hard.

Fri, 27 Dec 2002 06:05:07 GMT

stayed up long enogh

going to bed

'night

Thu, 26 Dec 2002 19:37:57 GMT

my brother just gave me some contraband Jones Soda. the inside the of caps says that I will be good in competitive sports.

Thu, 26 Dec 2002 19:01:56 GMT

The gift giving this year has been substantially less than in past years. We've all experienced a financial drain of sorts - but it was lovely, regardless.

Received small and wonderful gifts. Priya made me a book. Vanesa made me chimes out of sea shells. Pajamas and books from the rest of the family. Dad loved the scarf i made for him.

Dad ushered me in his office later that day. asked about my future plans (we have this talk every couple of months). Surprisingly he asked if I was happy. he surprised me further by saying that he was proud of me. funny how family things go.

this has been one of the best christmases i've had in a long time.

current music: cold play - trouble

Wed, 25 Dec 2002 06:18:15 GMT

I suppose tonight is a good a night as any to learn about the wonderful world of typesetting.

Sadly enough, I'm only familiar w/ leading.

Merry christmas.

also happens to be my niece's 8th birthday.

my sister has a feeling that she is carrying twins.

twins run very heavily on mum's side.

Tue, 24 Dec 2002 15:35:57 GMT

i have never gotten so much sleep in my life.

*yawn

it must be the three duvets. I'm so tightly cocooned that I can't rouse myself.

geez

Mon, 23 Dec 2002 22:50:08 GMT

christmas shopping done. spoke to lynn briefly. maybe i'll make a trip to Orangeville again before school starts. we could go home together then.

haven't spoken to jasmine yet. have the feeling she is avoiding me.

the last quiz i shall ever take.

Which Ultimate Beautiful Woman are You?
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Mon, 23 Dec 2002 16:20:08 GMT

gauguin show in toronto
modigliani show in buffalo

I'm going to see both. I'm going to smuggle my camera in.

Mon, 23 Dec 2002 15:08:03 GMT

out of momentary depression of last night.

have enough to keep me busy, namely shopping.
two more articles to write for the tribune
mess w/ the design features of quark
see old friends, sab and the baby, jas, old roommate, old band
clean the house
bake
get new years eve plans
but latest cold play

Mon, 23 Dec 2002 06:19:47 GMT

It feels strange to be back home. montreal is no longer a good fit. it's funny the changes that have taken place here. my sister told me that that's she pregnant. the parents are on some type of religious crusade, i hardly get to see them. my brother is more aloof than usual. the nieces are growing up too quickly.

i miss welland, but that city won't be home to me much longer. where will i go?

i've been looking at some internship possibilities in toronto, mainly art galleries and television. i'm also looking to the states. wouldn't mind being in chicago, or someplace else.

i'm worried about finances. i'm worried that i haven't been in a relationship for almost 2 years now. i'm worried about not writing. i'm worried that i might not have children.

the anais nin quote comes to mind often

and the day came when the risk the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.

i have so much more to do...

current music: hush (accoustic) - Tool

Sat, 21 Dec 2002 22:49:11 GMT

during the week i stayed in Orangeville, lynn and I, and sometimes her folks, would watch "100 shocking moments in rock history." Chris (Lynn's dad) thought the the most shocking moment would be when the music died (buddy holly, big bopper, and richie v.). I said it would be john lennon's death, and i was right. it was a good series, wouldn't mind buying the video.

upon returning o montreal, I've been napping and eating, not necessarily in that order. It's pretty unfortunate because i start modeling the second week of January. i suppose i'll let the students artistically interpret the rolls of fat around my tummy. I should start training for this. I have a tendency to sit straight and still for some time, but three hours, hmmm....

Lynn's parents are from liverpool. Their accent is amazing...very harsh and slightly sing-song like. Ruth and Chris, unbelievably nice people.

I miss Lynn, and her ani defranco(sp?) tapes, and her mr. ro-bo-to routine.

Sat, 21 Dec 2002 10:39:14 GMT

after months of not being able to log onto AIM, MSN messenger, and Yahoo, I am able to do so now. Strange.

Sat, 21 Dec 2002 10:21:52 GMT

after 12 hrs of traveling time I'm finally home.

one week spent in Orangeville, Ontario w/ Lynn and her family.

good times.

Thu, 12 Dec 2002 15:19:50 GMT

here're the peer evaluations for my presentation of grand theft auto

"concise, to the point"
"clearly presented"
"great topic"
"Alka was good in talking about ethnocentrism, pastoralism, etc..."
"Dusty needs to get out of the way of the overhead"
"Alka did a good job of talking to the class and not reading from notes.'

Wed, 04 Dec 2002 15:35:28 GMT

oh my!

I don't have the knack for journalistic writing and this crummy article, along with two others, are going to print in two hours.

everyone will now know i'm a fraudy writer.

wait! this thing gets edited first, it might not all be bad.

hmmmmm..........

Mon, 02 Dec 2002 02:05:06 GMT

there's about a foot and a half of snow outside. I'm in the imac lab at school, and i'm trying to figure out a way to leave this building.

i downloaded AIM, but it won't work. Figures.

i also need to wash my hair.

Thu, 28 Nov 2002 02:14:40 GMT

I'm going to be a model! For an art class, that is. :) :) :)

>Hi Alka

>I am always looking for "occasional" models. I have agroup of regulars that
>I deal with but I like to have others on staff as well for occasional
>changes. It would by no means be a regular job but it pays 15.45 per hour
>one class would give you 3 hours.
>The big question that I always feel strange asking is clothed or nude? We
>use both here.
>If you want to come over and see me I am in B7 of the Black Walnut
>building. Let me know and we can set up a time.
>Thanks Alka

>James

I'm also going to scan some pics of my roommates and post then.

Thu, 21 Nov 2002 02:29:04 GMT

arrrrrgggggggggg

I should not be getting my period a week early!!!!!

Mon, 11 Nov 2002 22:54:23 GMT

god help me i'm going to implode

Mon, 11 Nov 2002 14:14:45 GMT

memento is an awesome film. my appreciation of guy pearce has been bolstered tremendously.

the weather here has been mild. i should have taken advantage of it and gone jogging but my leg is sore and my right ankle is swollen. a lovely limp accompanies my walk now. striking the pavement too hard is never a good thing.

we finally all went out (Erin, Lynn, Carey and myself) Saturday night. I was so exhausted that my eyes were closed for the most part on the dance floor. We walked downtown afterwards in search of a cab. A group of people came towards us, actually only one girl from the group came towards me and said "I just want you to know that my friend over there thinks that you are so beautiful." Obviously they were all drunk, but I was deeply touched and hugged her. I shook the guy's hand and then ran across the street to hail a cab.

I have a prat time job as a writer for the Communication and Information Technologies newsletter. It pays well too. I can't wait for my first pay cheque. Maybe then I'd be able to fix my PC at home and have the net runnin

Tue, 05 Nov 2002 21:32:44 GMT

through the heating vents in the living room, Lynn and I listened to our new roommate having sex. Some people just sound horrible.

Mon, 04 Nov 2002 14:20:11 GMT

we have a new roommate. her name is sheri. I think she's 18.

things are unbelievably hectic and i have commitments every where. I had three job offers and i wish i could take each one since my fundage is dwindling. I've also promised to help some people w/ school work. My work is starting to suffer, but I pull it up.

alright. I must go.

my folks are back from NZ.

Wed, 30 Oct 2002 16:47:35 GMT

give me a list of places in Canada and the US where I can do an internship.

profit, non profit, agency....anything

all i need is a number, and possibly a contact name.

ie. Kids Help Phone
AGO
Royal Ontario Musuem

Mon, 28 Oct 2002 17:50:05 GMT

my computer will be fixed soon.

that's why I'm never on-line.

in case anyone misses me.

i'm sure everyone does

as you should